Musings of a Morning Failure

Don't we often wake up to face a day and then about two hours into it, we wonder "How could I already be failing ____?" Fill in the blank. God's word gives me great hope when this becomes the major activity of my brain:

"When the cares of my heart are many (when my anxious thoughts multiply within me), your consolations cheer my soul" Psalm 94:16.

Carolyn Mahaney and her girls wrote about this on one of their first blogs (http://girltalk.blogs.com/girltalk/spiritual_growth/index.html) This truth has helped me much since there is no way I can conquer every task, every care, every demand, every desire and every anxious thought. As a new bride, there is a huge adjustment to the responsibilities of a wife, making the home, and working. This morning, after cooking for Life 101 yesterday, I woke up without a spring in my step. It took me a full hour and a half to be semi-cogniscent. I was definitely behind on my ideal schedule, less animated and energetic than I wanted to be.

Within these tempting little lies that scream "Not enough!", I am seeking to apply the idea of satisfaction to my soul. God is satisfied with me because of his sacrifice on the cross. I love what Thomas Wilcox says in his little book, Honey out of the Rock,

"See that the wound that sin has made in your soul be perfectly cured by the blood of Christ! not skinned over with duties, humblings and enlargements. Apply what you will besides the blood of Christ, it will poison the sore. You will find that sin was never mortified truly, if you haven't seen Christ bleeding for you upon the cross. Nothing can kill it, but beholding Christ's righteousness".

Nothing but the blood of Jesus can cure a wounded soul. And my "failures" are merely reminders that Christ's righteousness satisfies my every need. He already sees me as perfect because of his son's sacrifice. I was meditating on the line in Psalm 40 "Sacrifice and offering you have not desired, but you have given me an open ear." I am not responsible ultimately for my sanctification, the process of being made more and more into the image of God. It is the complete work of the blood. It is such a comfort that God's word doesn't address sanctification in large issues but rather in small truths to apply to single situations. A little sip of water wets a parched mouth; same with God's word. God allows us to take sips at the well of God's word to drink of his truth and satisfy our thirsty souls. Like Burroughs says "Never lay your supply lines short of the fountain of grace".
This is grace : "But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. The Lord is my portion says my soul, therefore I will hope in him" Lamentations 3:22.